Friday, April 28, 2006
Dear diary, misery.
I think i seriously hate my sister and my father. Fcuk whatever i said about siblings. I dont even think my sister knows tha true meaning. I hope she dies of drinking and smoking. And so do my father. You know what, my sister just came down and told me that she wants to use tha com. BUT IWAS ALRDY USING IT. And there was also an extra com at tha other end of tha living room. Technically speaking, one wil ask them to go dwon to tha other end to use that com right? But nooooo, my sister insists that she wants to use THIS com. So i reluctantly said," Ok. Then wait til im done talking with my friend(Amos).". She said somethg like .. faster? Like hello, im using tha com now and therefore, isnt me who is suppose to issue tha order whether do i want it FAST or SLOW? And so i continued talking to Amos bcos he invited me to his church or sumthg. But halfway thru, my sister got really IMPATIENT and i said," If you dont like, theres always this com at tha other end of tha room.". Like fcuk, she BOOMED and walked over and used that com. Bloody hell, she even made noises when she sat down. Whats with women and their pms. But i dont think its about pms bcos my second sissy surely dont act like that when she had it. I think tha problem lies with her damning ATTITUDE. And she always demand evythg to go HER way. If she really loves me, how come she cant act as if she understanding just like my 2nd sister. BITCH. I hate her, i really do. Someone like her dont deserve my blessing. Someone like her isnt worthy of tha picture i gave. No, she isnt. BLOODY ISNT. Oh wait, you wanna hear tha most interesting part? Tha most interesting part is while evythg was going on, my dad was actually pissed and angry bcos i didnt let my sister use tha com. Whats with this whole family. Cranky and spooky. Bloody hell, tha next thing i knew was i stopped using tha com and got my bag and went up to my room. I must have swung tha bag real loud bcos tha last thing i heard was my mom calling after me," If you're not happy about something FIGHT IT OVER!" Bitch. Faggotry must have taken over this entire family. I didnt really hear tha last part bcos tears were alrdy falling down. Those were tears of injustice and misery.
Woke up with an heavy heart. I got down and saw tha com. Wanted to use it, but thot of what happened, went back up to my room instead. Got dressed later on and went out for breakfast. Was still pissed over my dad so i generously decided not to speak to him. What he said when we were in tha car later on made me hate him even more. He said my sister was abnormal and since she wants to use tha com, then let her use. Why must you make a big fuss out of it. I replied so if i drink and smoke and have that kinda attitude, i can use tha com then? I didnt even shout and yet he replied as if im not in tha car and was at tha other end of tha world. I almost said dont make me hate you even more. What have i done to get this kinda family. My dad always indulge my eldest sister and tha youngest brother. Just bcos brother wasnt studying at singapore, we're suppose to let him be and take really good care of him. When he wants to use tha com, im suppose to let him use and im suppose to go and eat and do whatever i havent done. Ass. And just bcos my sister smokes and drinks and have that illness, im suppose to give in to her as well. BITCCCCCCCCCH. I hope i am tha one who have tha illness and i smoke and drink and im as young as my brother so evyone and evythg can just go my way. I swear il never talk to her again. Ppl like her are only fit to talk to my ass. Damn her for saying her family are more impt than friends bcos ytd, she just quarrelled bcos of her pouty putty little friends. Her reason for using tha com was bcos her bloody friend is having his birthday or somethg and she wil be discussing with her friends how to celebrate it. Like real, she really kisses my ass. And besides, her friends can just tell her whats gonna happen. A 21 yrs old fancy acting as young as her friends who are only 17-19. Amos was different. He actually needs my decision. Sucks. I hate this. You know what, im gonna do really well in my Os so that i can leave this cranky household. And you know what, i don care when my sister is leaving for Singapore bcos all i hope is that she leaves for singapore. If she ever return that photograph, il tear it into pieces. I hope she really knows how childish she was when she looks back and realised what we were quarrelling over. A bloody shit of computer. Nobody is worth your tears. Tha one who is, wont make you cry.
Le sighs, am i overreacting over it. Speaking about photograph, my english compo was about it as well. Hur, it was abit diferent. My father died in it. Now i hope my sister was tha one. But does it matters? I hate them both equally. Had english on thursday, mothertongue on friday. I hope, i seriously hope i can get distinction for both of them. Then met up with kailin on Friday. Was fun. Ate chicken rice, talked here and there and caught up with one another's lives. She made me realise i have a cranky school. Great, now i have a cranky household and a cranky school. Went shopping abit. Cant wait for our mid years to end cos we're going out agn. Hiphiphooray!. Heh, went for perfume testing. That salesgirl was like cute and damn helpful. I hope evyone buys perfumes from her. She works at Metro if im not wrong. At tha Anna Sui counter. Haha, Kailin decided shes gonna buy Secret wish. Loool, so that she can seduce tha other guy. Blaaaaah. met up with second sissy and got home together. I hate william. That old faggot, old enough to be my dad, is actually skirt-chasing my sister. Its so damn embarassing going out with him. And my sister is too nice to cut him direct and say," I know you're nice but you're too old to have sex alrdy." Not in those words but yeah, somewhere there. I hope i can get to that Amos evanglistic thingy on time. Its in tha morning but mom-e needs me to help her with stuffs. So yeah, i hope i can get there and have a nice talk with him. But sometimes i find his church abit OVER-demanding. I mean like they stil ask Amos to go to church even when hes having Mid-years that kinda stuffs. Not saying that going to church is bad or what, but just that you know, mid-years...... yeah. I've decided. Im gonna buy that zara shirt and jacket, birkenstock and levis skinny jeans. :))))))))))
Gotta start mugging now to get my plans of leaving tha house in motion. Lol, lets set up a study plan. Complete whatever things i have in hand and then start my revision. Yeeeeap, and save money for Dom's birthday and my materialistic needs. heh, everone are lo<3s
if i had that one wish }