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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Dear diary, all tha lies.

Im able to cover myself up in labels and expensive tailor-made suits. All these money only managed to change what i am. But tha fact remains untainted that my birth was a lie and nth can change who i really am . Maybe shes right. Cutting my hair and dressing myself up with labels wont change anything. It all comes down to naught. Im still me. Tha perfect life is a life without tha 'f'. Im running away not because im escaping reality. Tha truth is that i realised tha world is tha one who's lying. Lying to me. -Neil Christ's Hell's Kitchen

Saw it on my storybook but i changed tha words here and there. Today is Akma(my best neighbour)'s birthday. Hooooray, im gonna treat her with an 'expensive' trip to City square and 'indulge' on her. Heres tha plan, a trip to tha movies and a lunch at Secrets Recipe. Haha, its tha best i can give in such a short time okaeee. SINCERITY AND THOUGHTS ARE BOTH PRESENT. Urgh fcuk Levis, tha skinny type1 jeans aint gonna come until august. )))): Then i wonder whats their spring/summer edition book for? Its like.. fcuk. My plans and all that are all gonna change just because of that. Im stressed. I think im gonna get another one of my hysterics again. It just so happens that im sick and absent from a school a day and i cant seem to catch up with tha class alrdy. And im so bloody nervous whats everyone gonna say about my hair that i practically shouted across tha class ive cut my hair so that they will like you know.. stop asking me those barbaric and awkward questions like... why did you cut your hair? orrrrr why did you do that to your hair? orrrrrr you cut your hair uh? Like duuuuh. Fcuk everyone for making me feel like a Pri1 kid attending tha first day of school. Amos is like soooo nice. He knows my hair DEMANDS ATTENTION and so thruout tha maths lessons at AVA, he was basically giving me his 102% attention on me and my hair. Haha, he also gave me money to buy an ice cream so that il feel better. In fact, IVE NEVER FELT BETTER IN MY LIFE, of course apart from tha body aches and tha lungs-breaking coughs. WILSON, PEIXIAN, SIHUI AND ME FORMED THA ANDREW'S HAPPY HOUSE. Yayness luh! I love this group thingys. So lovingly cuddly!!!! And you know what, MsCheah is my Lady Fcuk. She's fcuking H-O-T. Besides, her Hips Don't Lie. And she makes a man wanna speak PERFECT ENGLISH. All those attention, attraction, oh baby cant you seeeee, MSCHEAH IS PERFECTION. Damn, shes my fcuking mistress luh can.

I neeed to get my ass moving. I seriously find tha computer a constant distraction, as well as tha bed. But i love them nonetheless. Haha, spent tha evening talking to akma and went night-marketing with her. Im deeply astounded by tha way these night-marketers handle their stores and stuffs. And everything is so damn bloody cheap. The beggars literally sat in tha middle of tha road to get everyone's attention. And everyone just simply don't care. Whats with everyone nowadays. I HATE HUMANITIES. -currrrrrse

if i had that one wish }