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Monday, May 01, 2006

Dear diary, Greeeeeeen.

What happens when you hold onto forever. I've never really realised just how much ive missed out all these while because i was always busy chasing something surreal. Something that never really existed. And because of this, i closed down on doors that i never really intended to. Its just about missing out, letting go and reaching out.

Blooooody hell, my whole body is aching. I feel thoroughly unwell despite my temperature proved to be 37degress. And so it happens, i just cut my hair. Its so damn bloody shooooort. Tha hairstylist told me to go there and try out this new haircut of his and just nice, mdm memy caught me for my hair. So i decided to try and to my horror, ta-daaaaaaaaa. Tha hairstylist that i usually go to wasnt free at tha moment so he stood in for him. He seems really nice so i decided it might be okae afterall. WRONG WRONG WRONG. B-I-G mistake. Its like, he actually asked me if tha hair is acceptable or not, then it was like tha hair is alrdy cut and even if i disagree, nth will change. So i just nodded and let him do all those horrid stuffs to my hair.

Rah, ytd was also another complete dork.Had this study session with my best neighbour,who treated me nasi lemak, in tha morning and so managed to get a few pieces of maths paper done but havent really started revising. So im going to do that today. Sighs, ive been saying that for tha past three days and nth really seems to be done. Oh fcuk, i hope somebody can tell me whats going on in tha class right now. Urgh, fancy being sick when tha exams are just 3 days away. Fcuk fcuk fcuk. Promised leo to accompany him back home today. Oh well, ive been wanting to find sometime to talk to him. So yeah, decided that i shall go home with him. Heh, (:

Anyway, 2nd sissy was like really nice. She gave my biggest sissy and me 50 bucks each. I <3 her like fcuk. Shes damn sweeeet luh. Had this row with her earlier on and she called to say shes sorrry bout it. When it was actually abit my fault. But anyway, said im sorry too. I wonder if my eldest one can be like her. You know, say sorry and all those stuffs. Well, not saying that she did not, but just that saying 'sorrry' thru tha msn seems insincere when she can just walk down to tha other end to say those words. You know, both of us are actually INSIDE tha house. Well yeah, sort of settled evythg. Her improvement is better. She didnt went out and drink and stuffs. But i guess it was partly bcos of her face, too hideous to let people see it. She had a relaspe and her face was all swollen and puffy bcos of it. She bit her lip i think. Sighs, i hope she really knows how to take care of herself. We cant always be there 24/7 to take care of her.

Thats about it. Gonna start doing some stuffs now. Ciao. Damn im gonna hire a financial assitant cum maid cum doctor cum driver.

if i had that one wish }